Wednesday, November 16, 2011
what happens then?
There is this crazy thing happening in my life recently and maybe also in yours too. It's called flying time and I don't know how or why it happens, but I can't make it stop and it's driving me crazy. You see, I was just home for the weekend without even realizing that I would be back a week later to stay for a whole week and then after I leave from that week off I'll be back in like, another two weeks, and oh my goodness that means it will be the end of the semester and but what will I do with my life!? Question marks and exclamation points!?!?!
And a question that I am running into a lot lately is: "what are you and somebody-very-important going to do when you move away for good?"
I mean, I have had at least three different people ask me that in the past two days. All at different times and without knowing that I had already been asked previously and by other people. I mean, but really guys, I have no idea. Somebody-very-important and I have not really discussed this matter of fact.
We both know it's inevitable and that it's happening but we don't really know how it's going to work.
First off this is because neither of us are really super duper crazy serious right now. We're thinking about our futures, but not basing what we pick off of what the other one is thinking of doing. As in I'm not basing my plans around his life and he's not basing his around mine. Which for now is totally good and fine and all things wonderful.
To be honest, I love spending time with him. (If I didn't, why would I be dating him?) And also, I love that I have been accepted by his friends at face value. Because neither of us really knew what this relationship would turn out to be, we've taken things ridiculously slow and I didn't want to get too attached to all of his friends, you know? Because what if/when we broke up? He'd keep all of his friends (as it should be) and I would be back at square one. But I couldn't help to come to love each and every one of those boys. They are awesome.
So what will happen in June? There is still a lot of time left to figure that out. I don't need answers right now, and I feel like when that time comes closer there will be more serious talks. Right now I feel like it's kind of going to be one of two choices. We'll either call it quits and part on mutual terms or we'll get serious and try the long distance thing. But I know one thing for sure right now and that's that I'm not ready to think about this seriously quite yet. I feel like it will get resolved when it gets resolved and not a minute sooner.
We're still young. Who knows where life will take us? Together or separately. It's all just kind of up in the air right now, but then again, that's kind of how our relationship is. One day at time people, one day at a time. That's really about all my brain can handle at the moment anyway.