Monday, November 14, 2011
Mawage, Mawage, is wot bwings us togeva today
This girl and I, we go way back. We've had our ups and downs. We've been best friends and we've been on the non-speaking of the terms too. But I can't help to love her. I am myself around her. We can talk about anything, share secrets, confess wrongs, and without even talking sometimes we just know. We have not been super close since I moved away to go to college, but I love spending time with her.
And also, she just got married.
That's right. Married.
I was so excited for her when she got engaged and I counted down the days until she tied the knot with her wonderful fiance on 11/11/11 like the cool kid that she is.
Zelda and I drove back home on Thursday night in preparation for Ariel's Big Day. Her ceremony started at one in the afternoon and her reception was at three. I have never, ever, ever had as much fun at a wedding reception as I had at hers. Everything was beautiful, her music was fantastic and I decided to let go of my inhibitions and dance my life away with my friends. It was perfect for her and I could not have been happier for my friend.
And all the while I was busy being really happy, I couldn't help but be a little jealous too. I remember when it seemed that everyone I graduated with was getting married and popping out kiddos and I wanted to be a part of that. Not so much the babies movement, but the weddings. I dreamed about my dress and mooned over pictures of wedding decor. I was a total girl about it. I wanted it to happen to me.
I'm not quite so wedding-feverish anymore, understandably, but still. I am a girl, after all. I can't help but wonder when will it be my turn? All of you right now are saying to me, "Natalie, girl, please. Slow down. You have the rest of your life!" And to you I say, calm down. I'm not sitting here pining my heart away at the thought of getting married, but I'm just curious. When? How come it hasn't happened yet? But someday it will, I know. God's got this great guy lined up for me somewhere and I'll meet him someday and it will all be perfect. I know.
Somebody-very-important isn't looking to get married right away, and right now neither am I. The whole thing with PC made me approach this new relationship completely different. And even though my heart strings were tugged on a little bit this last weekend, I don't think I want to get married tomorrow, you know? I'm in a hurry and also not even a little bit rushed at the exact same time.
But it's always fun to "what if" the situation, yes? Yes.
It's a beautiful night, we're looking for something dumb to do. Hey baby, I think I wanna marry you. Is it that look in your eyes? Or is it this dancing juice? Who cares, baby! I think I wanna marry you.